( Yeah, Sam is not the sole source and target of Bucky's anger. Some of his issues may be personal, but his poor handling of them isn't. Steve, if anything, is a more appropriate person to lash out at. Maybe easier, too, considering how well they know each other. When you're friends with someone since the age of ten or eleven and now you're a hundred and six — plus you know they leave you anyway — what's holding you back?
Which isn't to say he won't feel guilty about it. There's practically more guilt than anger churning around under the surface, it's just that anger's harder to muffle in the moment.
You okay?
Never mind him. He exhales, and comes straight out with it: )
Sam, I told him about the shield. About Walker. I didn't mean to, it wasn't even really about you, it just...
( His lips tuck into one cheek, and he shakes his head. He's not even sure how to articulate what it was about, not without a few seconds to try and frame it in his mind. He didn't think that far ahead. Priority one was accountability, and he's never been one to hedge something he's done wrong. Ever. He might be a screw-up, but he's a screw-up that takes responsibility for it like a man.
Or, you know, the slightly sexist 1940s definition of like a man. He's not Woke enough to think about the saying too deeply yet, but he'll eventually cotton on.
Anyway, regardless of what it was about, it doesn't really matter. He did it, and-- )
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Which isn't to say he won't feel guilty about it. There's practically more guilt than anger churning around under the surface, it's just that anger's harder to muffle in the moment.
You okay?
Never mind him. He exhales, and comes straight out with it: )
Sam, I told him about the shield. About Walker. I didn't mean to, it wasn't even really about you, it just...
( His lips tuck into one cheek, and he shakes his head. He's not even sure how to articulate what it was about, not without a few seconds to try and frame it in his mind. He didn't think that far ahead. Priority one was accountability, and he's never been one to hedge something he's done wrong. Ever. He might be a screw-up, but he's a screw-up that takes responsibility for it like a man.
Or, you know, the slightly sexist 1940s definition of like a man. He's not Woke enough to think about the saying too deeply yet, but he'll eventually cotton on.
Anyway, regardless of what it was about, it doesn't really matter. He did it, and-- )
I'm sorry.