( Jesus, he feels like an asshole. Granted, he felt like one already, so it's just more asshole.
The last time he did something wrong, Sam yelled at him right back. Tit for tat. This muted, minimized reaction throws him. Hits him a little too hard.
There's a long pause after Sam's question made up of just Bucky trying to figure out things to say to make this better that aren't outright selfish excuses. When he answers the question, it's a little distracted-sounding. He hedges a few feet in Sam's direction, lowering the shield down off his arm, propping it up absently against a table leg. )
No. Yes. Maybe. I don't know. Listen--
( Because I'm sorry doesn't feel like enough, and it doesn't make him feel any better, but he's not sure how else to fix it aside from just... This. Repeating the same goddamn thing over and over again, but staying stuck in place like slowly sinking quicksand. )
I wasn't... trying to throw you under the bus. It wasn't like that. He just... I felt like he was disappointed in me over something he knew nothing about. I don't know why that flipped me, but everything just kind of came out all at once. I know we have a weird... thing, and I'm not trying to screw it up more. I'm really not.
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The last time he did something wrong, Sam yelled at him right back. Tit for tat. This muted, minimized reaction throws him. Hits him a little too hard.
There's a long pause after Sam's question made up of just Bucky trying to figure out things to say to make this better that aren't outright selfish excuses. When he answers the question, it's a little distracted-sounding. He hedges a few feet in Sam's direction, lowering the shield down off his arm, propping it up absently against a table leg. )
No. Yes. Maybe. I don't know. Listen--
( Because I'm sorry doesn't feel like enough, and it doesn't make him feel any better, but he's not sure how else to fix it aside from just... This. Repeating the same goddamn thing over and over again, but staying stuck in place like slowly sinking quicksand. )
I wasn't... trying to throw you under the bus. It wasn't like that. He just... I felt like he was disappointed in me over something he knew nothing about. I don't know why that flipped me, but everything just kind of came out all at once. I know we have a weird... thing, and I'm not trying to screw it up more. I'm really not.