Mmm. I can relate, on both accounts.

[ some of his friends had enjoyed smoking expensive cigars when they would sneak out in school to play cards and drink. he'd been too afraid of looking a fool his first time to join them. he'd learned to give the appearance of participating later in his pirating days, but never took it up in earnest.

What's your vice then? Alcohol? Gambling? Throwing yourself to the far reaches of the skies to keep things interesting?