Oh, so that's how you gonna do me? Just flip this around on me. That's what I get for letting you see me use my words, huh?
[ Sam lets the time travel talk drop, because yeah - there's no easy answer there, and no real fix for the hurt they've both endured. The hurt they are still enduring. If he could give Bucky some perspective, to just... jostle the weight on his shoulders into a slightly less crushing position? That's about as much as he thinks he can hope to achieve right now.
But Sam's teasing here - he appreciates the check-in, honestly, even if it almost catches him off guard. ]
Honestly? Trying to keep busy so I don't stop to think about some things too hard. Easy to do here. Between the aid station and trying to calm some emotions running high among the locals and the weird dreams and trying to keep an eye on shit... Goddamn cried when it really hit me that Tasha's here. [ He feels like he took something from Steve that Steve never gave him. That, though, he doesn't share with Bucky. A soft, drawn out sigh. Sam flicks his eyes back up to Bucky. ] I feel conflicted. 'cause I feel like there's shit I need to catch you up on, but you got plenty to juggle here.
[ It's not a fine, it's not... a complete gulf of honesty. It's not 'I'm coming apart at the seems and I don't know how to cope'. But it's an admission that maybe, just maybe, he's running himself a little ragged, too. ]
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[ Sam lets the time travel talk drop, because yeah - there's no easy answer there, and no real fix for the hurt they've both endured. The hurt they are still enduring. If he could give Bucky some perspective, to just... jostle the weight on his shoulders into a slightly less crushing position? That's about as much as he thinks he can hope to achieve right now.
But Sam's teasing here - he appreciates the check-in, honestly, even if it almost catches him off guard. ]
Honestly? Trying to keep busy so I don't stop to think about some things too hard. Easy to do here. Between the aid station and trying to calm some emotions running high among the locals and the weird dreams and trying to keep an eye on shit... Goddamn cried when it really hit me that Tasha's here. [ He feels like he took something from Steve that Steve never gave him. That, though, he doesn't share with Bucky. A soft, drawn out sigh. Sam flicks his eyes back up to Bucky. ] I feel conflicted. 'cause I feel like there's shit I need to catch you up on, but you got plenty to juggle here.
[ It's not a fine, it's not... a complete gulf of honesty. It's not 'I'm coming apart at the seems and I don't know how to cope'. But it's an admission that maybe, just maybe, he's running himself a little ragged, too. ]