[ His gaze lifts to watch Sam, taking in a long breath and feeling his shoulders slump on the exhale as he tells him this part.
Is that how he would do it? Leave Sam out of the discussion like that. Where Bucky wouldn't protest about him getting his chance maybe, maybe if he thought Sam would try to stop him from doing something stupid, he'd blindside him with the first part but...
That's a reach. And one no more fair to Sam than what he decides to do.
He wants to believe he's a better friend than that.
Wants to believe he's not that selfish.
Can't imagine what happens in those five years that changes that.
He pushes the guilt down, buries it. That's not what Sam needs. His mouth forms a thin line, then his expression softens again with sudden realization. Partner. ]
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Is that how he would do it? Leave Sam out of the discussion like that. Where Bucky wouldn't protest about him getting his chance maybe, maybe if he thought Sam would try to stop him from doing something stupid, he'd blindside him with the first part but...
That's a reach. And one no more fair to Sam than what he decides to do.
He wants to believe he's a better friend than that.
Wants to believe he's not that selfish.
Can't imagine what happens in those five years that changes that.
He pushes the guilt down, buries it. That's not what Sam needs. His mouth forms a thin line, then his expression softens again with sudden realization. Partner. ]
He's missing time too.