I plan to run as far away as I can as fast as I can, before he finds a way to use me to weaponize the Fold.
[ it feels achingly cowardly in the face of nina's nobility, her refusal to abandon alina to her loneliness. in that moment, alina feels anything but saintly. she should be the one giving hope and instead she's robbed nina of that, and for what? so that she can say 'thanks, nice knowing you, i'll be going now' and leave grisha problems to the grisha? it doesn't satisfy. guilt wells in her gut like blood from a wound. ]
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[ it feels achingly cowardly in the face of nina's nobility, her refusal to abandon alina to her loneliness. in that moment, alina feels anything but saintly. she should be the one giving hope and instead she's robbed nina of that, and for what? so that she can say 'thanks, nice knowing you, i'll be going now' and leave grisha problems to the grisha? it doesn't satisfy. guilt wells in her gut like blood from a wound. ]